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8 Years Ago Today I Woke Up After Relapsing on Cocaine

8 years ago today I woke up in my parent’s bedroom after another relapse. The night before I took my new ADHD medication, Adderall, and it reminded me of the feeling I got when I used cocaine. So I took some more Adderall, called some friends and went and bought an 8-ball of cocaine. My mind immediately returned to a state of paranoia as I crept around the house peering out the windows looking for cops. This is how I spent countless nights before I was set free from addiction. I would usually drink a fifth of Malibu Rum and about 6-10 Coronas, snort/smoke about $400 worth of cocaine, smoke a pack of Camels all while looking out windows and peepholes in fear that cops were watching me and about to break in. It was not what you call fun. I didn’t use or drink to “have a good time” like many do. I used because I didn’t feel normal sober. I used because drugs were my master. I worshiped them, sang songs to them and desired to be with them 24/7. And on May 23, 2004 I thought my life was over. I hadn’t used cocaine — my drug of choice — since the prior September (although I relapsed on alcohol and marijuana 2 months prior). So when I used again I heard voices in my head tell me, “See, God gave you 2nd and 3rd chances and you screwed it up. You’re going to die because God is going to teach others a lesson about what happens when you screw up.” It was a horrible night. Even as a...

An Unconventional Way to Fight Evil

  Is fighting evil really the best way to defeat it? In my town of Battle Ground, WA we have a heroin problem. Heroin addiction is evil. It’s a tool the enemy uses to steal, kill and destroy lives. I just heard yet another story about a local kid who overdosed on heroin and died. I hate hearing stories like that. I get angry and I want to fight this evil. The Bible instructs us to abhor evil and to cling to what is good. So as a child of God it’s natural to hate evil. But we don’t just want to have our feelings validated by scripture, do we? We want to take it a step further and see evil defeated. We know that Satan was defeated at the Cross. No question there. Jesus won – Satan lost. But how do we see evil works, like heroin addiction, destroyed? For this purpose the Son of God was manifested, that He might destroy the works of the devil (1 John 3:8b). While I believe strongly in spiritual warfare and casting out demons I want to talk about another tactic available to us. Giving the Kingdom away It’s a Kingdom strategy that has more to do with giving than fighting. I’m not talking about giving money or time. I’m talking about giving the Kingdom of God away to those who need it. Let me tell you a short story that might help better explain what I mean. Last Sunday at church, Pastor Dan had all of the men go for a walk. We were asked to walk with the Father...